"I'm happy when you're happy"
I hate it when people say. It might sound mean but it's true. It's such a selfish thing to say.
Its like I must always be 'happy' just so that you won't have to go through a bad time. No matter how you put it, that's still how it turns out.
Its not fucking fair. That just because of me, you end up having a bad day just because I am feeling shitty or in a bad mood. Obviously I'm gonna try my best to be in a good mood all the time. At least when people are looking. But sometimes I have one of those days where things get so bad that I just can't handle 'being okay'. Its only temporary. It'll go away eventually.
But no, you have to go make it all about you and make it a big thing and all. "Oh I'm not good enough blah blah blah" . Just shut the fuck up. You're only saying all that just because you can't make me feel better. JUST SHUT UP AND LET ME BE MISERABLE FOR AWHILE. I just need a day like that once in awhile. Where I feel like absolute shit and I don't have to care about anybody but me.
Is that too much to ask?
